Shalampax Speaks

Something recently popped into my head. I think that a great many people believe that they believe in a deity, but that belief is not truly inherent in the core of their existence. It is not an inextricable filament within the fibers of their being.

If I’m right, these people “believe” in their deity, in my case Paahlm, because that is what they were brought up to believe and that is the faith that others in their milieu exhibit. However, unbeknownst to them, their faith is not truly at one with their psyche. In other words, it manifests itself seemingly as a part of them, but it is not an internalized, immutable constituent of their being.

I am not saying that these people are faking it. I believe that they truly believe that they belief. It is self-deception as much as and possibly more than it is deception of anyone else.

Then I got to thinking, maybe sincerely believing that you believe is enough. If there is no intent of deception, maybe that is adequate for your deity to consider you pious and bless you. Or maybe not. Will He, She or It, instead, damn you for your deception even though it is unintentional and you are not even aware of it?

This raised further thoughts in my mind. Maybe what I believed about other people only believing they believed was not true at all. Maybe I was merely projecting my own reality. Maybe it is me who only believes that I believe. And, if so, am I to be eternally damned for it?

These thoughts plagued me for many minutes, but then I realized that I had had way too much to drink and I should have deferred writing this post until I sobered up. Sorry about that. Never mind.